The results are in. It's a go...go...go! part 1

Today marks the 19th week that I have this 'being' living in my belly. 

The test results came back, in the mail...(what??) and I had them read to me over the phone.

But before I reveal the juicy details, you must know what lead up to that fateful moment.

After the triple screen blood tests I had a number of weeks back,  I got two phone calls from two different doctors telling me I needed to call them back.  Both my GP and my Ob/Gyn told me (on the phone!) that the prognosis wasn't good.  The blood tests reveals a 1 in 3 chance of my baby being born with Down syndrome, and a 1 in 6 chance of a neural tube defect.  Now, I don't know about you, but being told this is bound to cause stress and worry at the very least for most expectant parents.  At the time I received the phone call I was in the car and  had to quickly pull over, lest I plow into the car ahead of me.

In the moment, I was horrified to hear these results on the phone, but accepted what was said.  There is something to be said for the power dynamic that occurs in such a situation, the doctor's words often taken as the last word.  It wasn't until I spoke about it with friends and family that I realized I bought into that dynamic and let it affect my ability to sift through the information that I was given.  But, that is a topic for another day.  Just know, that being an advocate for my own health and considering the flip side even when the person telling me is supposed to be the expert is priority for me from this moment on. 

more later...:)