we all know the last part....comes around. I like this idea however I prefer to expand on the meaning of it as I don't think the phrase is entirely accurate and even a bit short-sighted. In reality, karma is a bitch. The karmic scale is not at all balanced as this phrase suggests, more often than not the scale tips so far down on the one side of 'what I do' vs. ' what will come back my way'. What I do matters so much more than what comes back. Or, some call it, karmic debt. I like this phrase much better as it describes so well how unevenly balanced the karmic scale is. Maybe an example here will help you understand if I have lost you.
If someone does something really terrible like bring paraphenelia to a large gathering and starts a riot, that person would rack up a ton of karmic debt. Obviously, that person doesn't have karmic debt in the forefront of his or her mind. But, if he or she decides to turn themself in, and pays his debt to society by spending time in jail, or paying a fine, or doing community service or all the above, how far back the other way would the scale tip? Not too far, I think. Karmic debt is difficult to repay. It can show up in so many ways that its hard to pinpoint how it works. But oh how it works.
This is an extreme example, but considering the recent Stanley Cup Riot that happened last week after our beloved Canucks lost the cup, it is a question that many may be asking themselves now. At least I hope so. Its a bit unsettling to think of the bad karma swirling around all those people!
Examples from my own life show me that I can balance the scales, but that it takes a lot of 'goodness' to undo a little bit of 'badness'. Growing up, I certainly didn't think too long about how my actions impacted others. As teenagers we are far too self involved and narcissistic to think too much about our contributions to this life.
At some point though, we can't help but ask ourselves how our lives are turning out. Are we living the life we want to live? Do I make a difference? Is my life meaningful? What is the point of this life?
The answers to these questions are not the same for everyone, for sure, but we all know what the answers are. We just have to listen to that part of us that is all-knowing and wise. That part that tells us that we are worthy of love just because we are alive. That part that tells us we deserve to be here. Karma is the ultimate expression of the love we have for ourselves. When we are so willing to share the love we have for ourselves we can love others even more. Our karmic scales then become balanced when the inflow and outflow of karma match the love we are willing to give and and the love we receive.
I often think that I have finally paid my karmic debt, that my outflow of kindness and good spirit has matched or superceded the inflow. That I have a zero balance and maybe even be in the black. Then something crappy happens to me. I feel duped. I feel sad that it is not done. Maybe its my guilty mind still trying to make me pay the price for the stupid stuff I did as a kid. Or maybe its just another layer being peeled back.
Regardless, so much good has happened in my life the last couple of years I can't help but be reminded that I have paid that debt. I have a beautiful baby boy, a wonderful guy in my life. I am perfectly poised to live my best life! I have suffered enough for now.
My job now is to teach my son the importance of putting good vibes out there to attract a positive flow of karma and love in our lives.
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